Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Muse 2012 Released

The summer 2012 edition of Muse magazine was released November 29, 2012. There was a nice release party on the Heartland Community College campus with free food and I was given a free copy of the magazine. I want to thank my friends Marion, Sabrina, and Gaby for showing up for the event and it was nice seeing Thomas again. This year's Muse layout was much better than last year's Muse layout in my opinion and I really liked how they presented my two submissions in the magazine.

I slacked off a bit for a couple of weeks on my first Sawaporn issue, but now I'm busy working on it again.

Anyway, it's finally December, which is my favorite time of the year. I hope it gets really cold.

Here is a song that always reminds me of cold winter evenings. It is "Lack Of Sense" by Tribantura (1987). I originally discovered this in December of 2006:

Here is the song "Seabird, Seamoan (remix)" by Belfegore (1984). The album version isn't on Youtube as far as I know, but this version is good too. I originally discovered this in December of 2006:

Here is the song "Der Goldene Reiter" by Joachim Witt (1981). I originally discovered this in December of 2006:

Here is the song "My Dying Machine (1989 razormaid promo mix)" by Gary Numan. I originally discovered this in December of 2007:

Here is the song "Lady Sisters" by Queen Sea Big Shark (2007). I originally discovered this in December of 2008:

Here is the song "Fuck Christmas" by Fear (1982). I originally discovered this in December of 2009:

Here is the song "Mecha-mania Boy" by Devo (1981). I discovered this in December 2010:

Here is the song "Under Your Spell" by Desire (2011), specifically the version featured in the film "Drive" (2011). I discovered this in December of 2011:

Here is the song "Avalanche" by Nick Cave And The Bad Seeds (1984). I discovered this in December of 2011:

Here is the song "Burnt Flowers Fallen" by Type O Negative (1996). I originally discovered this in December of 2000::

Here is the song "Suicide Ocean" by Lydia Lunch (1982). I originally discovered this in December of 2005:

Here is the song "Going Under" by Devo (1981). I discovered this in December 2005:

Here is the song "Conspiracy" by Play Dead. I discovered this in December of 2004:

And finally, here's a live version of the song "Violent Playground" by Nitzer Ebb. I couldn't find the studio version on Youtube. I discovered the album version in December of 2008:

Saturday, November 10, 2012

Muse Delayed

I just found out that the Muse magazine release party will be delayed until Thanksgiving break. The printing company that is supposed to handle the Muse Summer 2012 edition is located in New Jersey. The company was affected by a long power outage due to hurricane Sandy and they only recently got power back.

Anyway, here is that link to a clip from page 19 of issue #7 again:

Here is the song "New Home" by Shriekback (1984):

And the song "Hubris" by Shriekback (1984):

Finally, the song "My Careful Hands" by Shriekback (1984):

I discovered the album "Jam Science" (1984) by Shriekback approximately six years this afternoon. It's my favorite Shriekback album and it's unfortunate that it has never been reissued since its original vinyl release.

I can't wait for the cold winter to embrace and smother this town with snow and ice.

Speaking of which, here is the song "Under An Ancient Sun" by Jeremy Soule from "The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim" game. I really like this piece of music.

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Issue 7, Page 19

I'm still working on issue #1.

I posted another clip from my Sawaporn graphic novel series onto DeviantArt this afternoon. This is the second clip that's been released online. This is from page 19 of issue #7.
This paragraph is copied from my post on DeviantArt and it is meant to explain the context of the clip since it is more than just a single panel of Sawaporn sitting in a stairwell:
"The context: Sawaporn the protagonist has spent the night dumpster-diving for food since she is deep in severe poverty. On the way, she meets a woman dressed as a Teutonic knight. This woman is a soldier and propagandist serving in an all-female barbaric cult. This cult coincidentally worships Sawaporn, which surprises Sawaporn. The soldier reveals that the cult collects and consumes menstrual fluid. In this scene, Sawaporn discovers multiple trash cans full of moist, bloody tampons. Sawaporn gives the trash cans to the soldier. The soldier shoves her head into the cans and begins sucking the menstrual fluid out of the tampons and eventually eats them."

Here is the song "Flex It!" by Re-Flex (1983):

"Some Kind Of Stranger (demo version)" by The Sisters Of Mercy (1984):

"Conflict" by Sort Sol:

"All Glory (peel session)" by Southern Death Cult (1983):

"Dark And Light" by The Royal Family And The Poor (1984):

Anyway, I'm thinking about watching "Flesh + Blood" (1985) starring Rutger Hauer or "The Keep" (1983) tonight.

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Halloween 2012

Happy Halloween!!

I'm still working on the first story. I was going to continue it tonight. I plan on starting issue 8 in early December.

The "Summer 2012" edition of Muse magazine will be released November 13, 2012. I'm looking forward to it.

Here's a fan-made video of "Everyday Is Halloween" by Ministry (1984):
This was the first song I liked by Ministry before discovering "Same Old Madness" (1981), "With Sympathy" (1983), "Twitch" (1986), and "The Land Of Rape And Honey' (1988).

Here's the song "The Last Song" by Trisomie 21 (1986):
This is my favorite version of this song. As far as I know, there are at least three versions.

And here is the song "Autopsy Performing" by Kilslug (1983):
I discovered this song six-years-ago tomorrow.

And here is the song "The Lebanon" by The Human League (1984):

Finally, here is "Fear Of The Dark" by Scars (1981):

I think I will watch the silly "Halloween 3" or "Night Of The Creeps" tonight.

Monday, October 8, 2012

Muse, October, Photography, & Issue #1

The 2012 Summer edition of the local Muse magazine has been postponed until November for some reason. There will be a release party at the Heartland Community College campus and I will be attending.

The two drawings selected for publication in the 2012 edition of Muse magazine are :

Anyway, I am glad that it is finally October. October, November, and December have always been my favorite months throughout the year. It's cold surprisingly early this year. It would be great if the cold stuck around. I hope we have a powerful and long winter with over-the-top blizzards. Last year was disappointing due to the lack of actual cold and snow. It seemed like autumn of 2011 and spring of 2012 were just one season. It was the worst winter in my life so far. Despite last year's lame winter, I find that it is easier to concentrate on my art in the time period of late autumn/early winter. A cold landscape is inspiring.

I am debating buying new film for my old Canon AE-1 camera and taking photos of the nearby Constitution Trail as the leaves of the trees experience their massive death. I haven't used my camera for many months now simply because film is becoming increasingly expensive. I still take pictures with my digital camera, but it's a cheap digital camera and I've always had an appreciation for the look of film. I also discovered through calling around that black and white film is almost no longer sold anywhere in this town. The only exception is the Ilford HP5 Plus brand sold at the Heartland Community College campus. This film type is what I started out on and I enjoy it, but unfortunately it is difficult to have developed without a dark room. I would have to send the film to Chicago to have it developed and printed and that is very expensive. Sending it away and having it developed and printed in Chicago takes two weeks per roll as well.

I am currently still working on the official issue number one of the Sawaporn graphic novel series. I still haven't come up with a title for the whole graphic novel series. The original working title was "Atheist Thai Girl."

Here's the song "Domingo" by Yello:
This is from the album "Stella" (1985) and it is one of my favorite albums in general.

Here's the song "Something To Do" by Depeche Mode (1984):
This is one of my favorite Depeche Mode songs from the album "Some Great Reward" (1984).

And here is the song "Man From China" by Vivabeat (1980):
This is their best song in my opinion and it is from the album "Party In The War Zone" (1980). The Youtube video says it was from 1979, but Discogs states that it was actually 1980.

I discovered both of the albums "Stella" (1985) by Yello and "Some Great Reward" (1984) by Depeche Mode six years ago today, October 8, 2006 in two separate nearby pawn shops. I also discovered the song "Man From China" by Vivabeat six years ago today while using the Internet at my local public library.

I am still waiting for the completion of the newest Feminist Frequency project. Lately, I watched "Antichrist" (2009) by Lars Von Trier and Paul Thomas Anderson's new film "The Master" (2012). Both of these were really good films.

Monday, September 24, 2012

I'm still working on issue #1 (official). There are three reasons why I'm moving slowly with this latest issue. The first is I've been a bit busier recently, which is finally changing, and secondly I want to go slowly through this one to make sure I don't invent continuity errors. After all, this story takes place before the first six I did between May 2010 through March 2012. Finally, I've procrastinated and watched a bunch of horror\sci-fi films from the 1970's and 1980's lately (about one a day) since I've had decent Internet access lately.

I remain indecisive about Sawaporn's surname. I feel it should be longer and more difficult to remember. Though I have a default surname in mind, I think of her as Sawaporn S. for now.

I posted the second panel from page 27 of issue six of my Sawaporn series on DeviantArt.
This is the first thing I've posted on my DeviantArt page since April 11, 2012. This is the first complete image I've released from the actual series onto the Internet.

I really enjoyed this video by Cristina Rad (zomgitscriss) so I'll post it here.

I am anxiously awaiting for the completion of this project:
This is a video series called Feminist Frequency hosted by Anita Sarkeesian that I follow. The link above promotes the latest project which is an examination of common female tropes in video games.

And listen to this for some reason:
"Feel Me (12 inch mix)" by Blancmange (1982).

One more thing, I am very glad autumn is finally here.

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Issue #1, Debating Misogynistic Creationists, Debating UFO Nuts, Feminism, & Some Zappa Sprinkled On Top

Issue #1 (official) is coming along nicely. I've been a little slower in the process of making it though due to other things occurring in my life.

Last Sunday July 22, I went into a local store in downtown Normal called "Acme Comics" and I talked to an employee about ideas on how to present my story to the Internet. He suggested the idea to post 1 page from my an issue in my series every week. Hopefully, this will bring people back to this blog and it would certainly give me enough time to write and draw the next stories.

Anyway, I just recently learned the hard way NOT to try to defend reason against superstitious misogynists on Youtube when I spent a long time debating idiotic pro-life (otherwise known as Anti-Women's Rights) activists under a video titled "5 Questions About My Abortion." Ugh!! First of all, the woman in the video explains that women should NOT be shunned for getting an abortion. There is no reason why a woman should be treated like a murderer or be ashamed just for taking control of her body. The misogynistic ass-hats in the comments under the video offended me greatly and so I began picking certain ones out and trying to reason with these people. I became sucked into their bewildering black hole of militant raging caveman stupidity for hours and I eventually just demanded EVERY person to give me an actual argument against women's rights. Not a single person even attempted to give me a coherent argument. I kept seeing people say silly things such as "because it's murder," "the unborn child has rights that override a woman's rights," "she should keep her legs closed," "adoption is an alternative," and I even heard the most absurd "that baby could've grown up to cure cancer." One of the most annoying people was an extraordinarily immature, uneducated, volatile, irrational lady who uses the name Meghan Kathleen Schuler. This person had no understanding of science, logic, history, politics, and somehow her own misogyny. I debated her until she said something like "it's okay to kill cows because they don't have souls, but fetuses on the other hand..." If someone is going to base their political views on their bizarre beliefs in the supernatural, then they immediately lose the debate. Two more stubborn ignorant people kept battling me until they were cornered. I made an ally for a time named "Miss Greta" who attempted to battle the wave of utter misogyny with me. Either she had less tolerance for extreme pro-life stupidity, or she was participating in the arguments long before me and ran out of fuel just after I arrived. Users called me things such as "ignorant twat," "murderer," "dyke?," "idiot," "insanely evil (in all caps)," "sadist," and much more. I suppose name-calling is the most sophisticated argument a pro-life person can make. It's disheartening that so many people think they have the right to tell adult women what they can do with their bodies. Eventually, three evangelical Christians who opposed me politically decided to send me personal messages. Two of them were proselytizing and the third seemed to just want to understand me. A user named "rebekahcochran" began trying to convince me that the biblical Genesis story of creationism is 100% accurate along with Noah's flood. I don't understand why this person wanted to talk to me about THIS subject after meeting me in the comments under the abortion video. They didn't understand that Biology, Geology, and Astronomy are three separate things and they didn't even know how to spell EVOLUTION even when I corrected them, along with many other words. They had NO understanding of science and when I sent them links to websites like, they claimed that the site was a website for streaming movies, which means this "rebekahcochran" person was being dishonest. This user admitted that they follow Kent Hovind, the nut-job and convicted crook who believes dinosaurs walked with humans who also believes aliens are visiting us... and that the aliens are simultaneously demons. "Rebekahcochran" eventually accused me of buying into the "evolution conspiracy" without thinking critically about it. How ironic.
The funniest thing that "rebekahcochran" sent me was this: "One of the things that suggests to me that evelutionists are wrong is commet ages. According to evelutionists commets should be around the same age as the solar system which is said by them to be 5 billion years. However, the orbit it has with the sun has a maximum age of around 10,000 years which is fare less than 5 billion. Evelutionists try to account for this claim with, "oort cloud," which has never been proven true and has been proven false with mathmatical calculation." This is a copied and pasted quotation and is only a segment of several paragraphs of absolute nonsense. This argument is so nutty that I suspect that this person is a fake. I eventually confessed that I believed they were a phony and they became very offended. If they're not a fake, then I really hope they're opposed to voting.

During these infuriating debates that took place over multiple days, I visited my Freethinkers\skeptics group and the lone alien\Uri Geller\conspiracy\self-proclaimed ghost & Sasquatch hunter who visits us occasionally began proselytizing at us. I couldn't believe the timing. This person has admitted that their beliefs are faith-based when cornered in the past, but then recently began asserting he had evidence, but he conveniently didn't "feel like revealing it to those of us who insist that he bring it to the group." He then claimed his evidence was being suppressed by invisible agents, so I wonder how he acquired his "evidence" and why he won't expose it to skeptic (the people who care about truth the most)? Everything he said is stuff I and other members of the local freethinkers group have refuted multiple times previously over the past year-and-a-half of arguing with him. After he insulted me and talked down to me for asking for his evidence, then talked over me when I was trying to reason with him, I lost my temper and yelled "Shut the fuck up" at the lunatic. He claimed my reaction meant I "lost" the argument, and I explained that he was wrong and that the way to lose an argument is to provide really bad arguments while being immature and deceptive about it. I felt better after venting at him though and he deserves no apology. The good thing about debating online through private Youtube messages is that the person you're talking to cannot interrupt you.

"5 Questions About My Abortion"

This is a video called "#3 The Smurfette Principle (Tropes vs. Women)" by Feminist Frequency.
I'm posting it because first I like this series and second after I watched the whole six-part series I was delighted that my female protagonist doesn't fall into any of the bad stereotypical female tropes. Since I picked video number 3, "The Smurfette Principle," I will talk about that. The series protagonist is Sawaporn, a young independent foreign heterosexual atheist woman from Bangkok, Thailand with a real personality. She is not a smurfette in a social group of males, like the Rosebud character (1 female out of a group of 5) in the silly talking-puppy "Buddies" movie series. In fact, the few friends Sawaporn eventually makes throughout the series so far are all female. All of the surviving males and almost all of the surviving females in the full story are terrible, hyper-masculine, violent, irrational, racist, superstitious, homicidal, monstrous scum. She is not a sexual and ironic symbol of "female empowerment" like Halle Berry in the ridiculously awful Catwoman movie. She is not a hollow romantic support for a male protagonist (and remains single mostly by choice), she is not a seductress, nor does she get impregnated by a mysterious entity. These were natural elements in my story that developed throughout time. I wasn't actively trying to avoid the stereotypical tropes, but coincidentally I wrote a character that was unique. There has always been subtle feminism in the series, but lately I've felt like pumping more into it after learning more feminist concepts from feminism blogs and having wild and long debates with a feminist friend.

This is a Zomgitscriss video called "Childfree" that I appreciated.

Anyway, here's a song called "Real Hymn" by Modern Eon from the 1981 album Fiction Tales.
Modern Eon was a somewhat obscure, short-lived UK-based band with five members that combined post-punk\early Gothic rock\early new wave. It's been in my head for the last few hours.

For fun, "Hong Kong Garden" by Siouxsie And The Banshees. This was their first single before their premier album.

Also for fun, "Exploring The Secrets Of Treating Deaf Mutes" by Severed Heads (1983).

Last weekend, I saw Dweezil Zappa play live at The Castle Theatre in downtown Bloomington on July 14, so I'll post this video randomly. "Dancin' Fool" by Frank Zappa performed on Saturday Night Live in 1978.
The Zappa Plays Zappa concert was the best live performance I've seen in my life. The band showed that they were there to have a good time and Dweezil even began making small introspective speeches with the audience between songs occasionally. I talked to Dweezil, Sheila Gonzalez, Kurt Morgan, and a vocalist whose name I didn't catch. I even had them sign a dollar bill when I had nothing else for them to sign. I eventually left the Castle Theatre and returned so that they could sign an empty page in the book that contains my two newest Sawaporn issues, which are issues #7 and #1. I saw Type O Negative perform at the Riviera Theatre in Chicago back on November 22, 2003 and though it was a good performance, Zappa Plays Zappa was definitely superior because this was a small venue, which made it more comfortable and after the show, the band socialized with the audience and told stories and jokes, unlike Type O Negative. Type O Negative played their songs and then just left the stage immediately. Also, the Type O Negative show was shared with two shitty bands Moonspell (lame) and Cradle Of Filth (fucking annoying).

And finally, congratulations to my friends Brett Smith and Cassandra Fortney on their wedding July 27. I had a good time.


Edit: According to the automated spellchecker, the words "Hong" for Hong Kong and "Bloomington" are somehow misspellings. Weird.